To wish i had not been born

To wish i had not been born
   and to fear death's dearth
both in same worldy breath . . .
   ironical laughter from gods
seat of judgement distance lent

   i shall not judge from on high
i refrain from low comment
   and with compassion
urged by mortal pain
   feel thankful for this term of sensible being
knowing my personal identity shall cease
   and wear sighs and tears never never again

2006